Today is the 29th June 2010 . It's a tough day for me, having to put aside my thoughts to concentrate on dry topics at school . I know i have to do it no matter what, only the days of happiness will come sooner as each day pass .

Dear dear had an early night because yesterday was a busy day for him, fast aslept at 8pm . Well, have a nice rest .

As for me, i'm gonna have to turn in and try to knock myself out sleeping because i have work tomorrow . Yeah, landed yesterday, school today, work tomorrow . I already thanked myself for not having a shift after school today . I figured i have to keep on working, working hard to get what i want . =)

I love you, dear dear . Goodnight to all .

Today is the 29th June 2010 . I realized that after i touched back down in Singapore, i have this huge urge to fly back, that i wouldn't mind living in those shabby bunks for long, as long as i can be with my husband .

Yesterday wasn't a good day, and today i realized missing level hit a high 100% . D=

I can't focus well . What do i do ? What should i do ? I'm almost going nuts .

It's gonna be at least two months before we see each other physically again . And i'm losing my elements fast . Perhaps, i need to work more so i could channel my attention to some other stuffs .

But now i know, i really miss you . Your shirt will be filled with my smell soon . =l

Today is the 28th June 2010, i'm sitting right in front of my computer back in Singapore wondering where is my energy, or rather where is my motivation . I'm just so lethargic .

I'm suppose to do my tutorials but i haven't flipped open any notes yet .

What am i supposed to do . . .

I feel like taking a walk out in the streets, like what i used to do . 4am . . . where the roads are all much quieter, cool breeze, peaceful scene down the street .

I don't know what i'll become if one day i lose you .

Today is the 28th June 2010 . It's been almost two months since i last blogged a post . This is a blog post direct from Brunei . . . and i'm flying back to Singapore later today .

Well, maybe this time i've spent more time with my husband as compared to previous visits . Thinking back now, indeed it is, and it makes this flight back to home really reluctant . They all say one year is gonna be fast, but i don't see it . I don't see it at all . It's so slow that i can bearly feel that it's been passing, even though the fact is there's half a year left .

This time, my flight back clashes with some VIP visit, thus making it impossible for my husband to send me to the airport . I can't describe how much i wanted to leave this place for good, i mean, together with my husband . Not that i'm finding it boring, oh well, it is boring .

The food here sucks, even the Mcdonald's taste weird, and the food is almost as much as one you would be paying in Singapore, or maybe cheaper . Infrastructure is only acceptable on highways, single way roads along the household areas are disastrous; dirty, fulla up and downs and some not even made with tar because it's basically just rocks .

But sometimes there's is no choice . When you want things to be better you have to give up some other things . Just like the human hands, when you have candies on both of your hands, you have to give up those candies if you desire a big lollipop that's placed right in front of you .

Those times when i lie in bed finding a way to sleep, i always end up thinking about things that affect me . It happened a lot lately but i'm always back to happy mood with my husband around . Now that it's gonna be a period of lonely life again i'm not sure if i'm gonna be happy always .

Because i know i'll miss my husband so much . Even now, although i'm still in Brunei .

I'm gonna have to blog again when i reach back home in Singapore .